I begin this post with a heavy heart. So far, this round of fertility treatments, our 3rd, is not showing positive signs of it working. While I have faithfully been testing for ovulation each day, it seems that my body has different ideas. No ovulation yet! Frustrating beyond all measure! I don't quite understand what I should expect or what I should feel. I guess I just expected this next round with the higher dosage to produce more positive results. Just because the test doesn't detect the LH surge that happens with ovulation, doesn't mean that I'm not ovulating...so there is still hope. I'm just disappointed that there's not a more sure way to get my body ovulating. We will wait another couple of weeks and if my body doesn't start a cycle on it's own, I will again take Provera and begin round 4 of our treatments. We see Dr. Pete in September, so it's likely that we will only get through the two cycles before we see him again.
As far as the side effects... I did have some pain in my ovaries but not unbearable and still experience some hot flashes... this time it is throughout the day rather than just at night as before. Also enjoyed some mornings of nausea for the first couple days of the meds. I will admit that I was expecting more with this higher dosage. While I am happy that things were bearable, I almost feel like if the side effects were a bit more unbearable, I would feel more positive that the meds were working. Don't know if that's the case or not, but that's how I think.
At any rate, that's what's ben going on with this round of treatments. Nothing to write home about, but we're not losing hope. I love it when Heath holds me as we cry and says "Don't lose hope, Babe! Don't give up... we will have a family!" He is my rock on this earth. My encourager. The only one I would want to be going through this with.
Father, we know that our timing is not always yours. We wait with open arms and softened hearts for the perfect timing that you have for us to become parents. We feel like we're ready, but we also know that you are the only one who truly knows when the exact best time is. Please help us to hold close to you and to one another and to glorify you in everything we say and do throughout this journey. We love you and we praise you for what you have already blessed us with and for what you will bless us with. Amen!
I think the pain in the ovaries is a very good sign! Something is definitely moving around.
ReplyDeleteThe ovulation kits never worked for me. I always had to have a blood test and ultrasound to determine when I was about to ovulate. I wish Dr. Pete could do that for you - it might take a lot of the frustration and guesswork out of this for you!
Don't lose hope, my friend. There are many other medications out there than can help besides Clomid. If that doesn't work for you, I'm sure the doctor will find one that does. Keep pressing on!