My husband and I are trying to have a baby. I have PCOS and the likelihood of us having a child without some infertility help is minimal. Since February we have been working with doctors. The beginning was quite frustrating. Our family doctor (Dr. Kitts) was supposed to receive my charts from my previous doctor and read through it before our second appt in June. I arrived at the office in June to find out that he had not only not read my chart, but in fact, he had never received my chart. After fighting with my previous doctor to get my chart (I no longer lived in that town and did not want to drive all the way there, they wanted another signature, they would send it when they got to it, etc., etc… what a nightmare) my mom finally picked it up and we hand delivered it to our family doctor.
I made another appt for a month down the road, so that he had time to read the chart and decide on a plan of attack. Arrived at the office for the 3rd time in July and he, again, had not read the report. He sent me home, feeling disappointed and unsure of what my next move should be. He promised to read it over the weekend and call me on Monday. Two weeks passed and I never heard from him. I finally called, but by this time was pretty ready for a new doctor… someone who actually cared about us and our future family, or at the very least pretended. He returned my call, said he had still not read the chart, but again promised to over the weekend. He called me the following Monday. With PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) diabetes is a concern since there is usually some insulin resistance. He ordered a Glucose Tolerance Test. Relief… we were finally moving forward. It was August by now. I went to the lab the next day for the GTT, and was told the results would be in and I should hear from him within 3-4 days. Again, 2 weeks later, I had to make the call to him. He called back and said all my levels were normal. Cholesterol was a bit elevated, but nothing he was concerned about. He was going to refer me to an OB/GYN friend of his who would do a hysterosalpingogram (HSG, aks the dye test to check for blockages in my tubes). He also wanted my husband to have a complete semen analysis to rule out any problems with him. He did not offer to help us with that, but said the OB/GYN would do that.
Almost 2 wks later I had not heard anything back from him about the referral or from this OB/GYN friend. By then, we had had enough. We decided to call an OB/GYN of our choice and see if we could get an appt with him. I should explain that we were just married in June of 2008 and I moved to his home town, so had not established all my doctors/dentists/hairdresser, etc. The day after I called Dr. Pete and got an appt for the following Thurs, our family doctor called with the referral information and said the appointment had been made for 2 Thursdays later. Not so much, because as soon as I received the paperwork, I called the doctor that Dr. Kitts had referred me to and cancelled my appt. We had decided to go with Dr. Pete. I met Dr. Pete the following Thursday and he was amazing. I explained the whole story even through some tears at one point. I felt that he was genuinely interested in my story and the outcome. That day he prescribed me Provera, to get my cycle that had been non-existent for 2 years, jump started. It worked. 1 week later I had my first period in forever. Now, I know to some women, that is “the curse of all curses”, but to me and to my husband, that was “the blessing of all blessings”. It felt like the first step in our baby quest. I called Dr. Pete as soon as I started so that we could schedule the HSG, dye test. Unfortunately, the hospital was booked solid in the right time frame, so we must wait for my next cycle. Which brings up another thought… will I have a next cycle, or will we need to jumpstart again? In addition to this, Dr. Pete has me on Prenatal Vitamins, because he does with everyone who is TTC. To treat any insulin resistance there might be, which should get me ovulating, I am taking metformin every day.
I at least feel like we are getting somewhere. My husband will go next week sometime to have the semen analysis. We are praying that everything is a-ok where he is concerned. If not, we know God will give us the strength to face whatever the tests say. Please pray for us. We realize this is just the beginning. We don’t know what God has in store, but we are praying for His will, not ours. That is the most heart wrenching prayer a woman could ever possibly pray. To pray God’s Will, knowing very well that prayer is powerful and that His plan is perfect. His plan for our life may not involve children, but we are confident that HE knows best. We would give anything to be parents and we believe that we will be blessed with that opportunity, but if we are not, He will be our strength, He will be our comfort, He will be our fulfillment.
This is turning into a book. There are things that I needed to share, though. I needed to get the facts out. If no one ever reads my blog, my heart has been emptied and there is room for joy in the midst of the battle. I heard a song this morning on my way into work. The words to "Let the Waters Rise" are to the left. They spoke directly to me, because they say exactly what I feel. God, you are awesome, merciful, loving, and faithful. You will never leave, you know what is best, and you are with us through it all. So, let the waters rise!
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