In February I had laproscopic surgery done after which Dr. Pete diagnosed both PCOS and Stage 2 Endometriosis. Now, 7 months later I finally feel like we might be moving forward. Yes, it took 7 months. It seems like longer to us, though. Since February we have been counting cycle days, tracking ovulation (which as of yet has not occurred), reading Negative Pregnancy test, and all in all finding ourselves wrapped up in the middle of fertily treatments month after month. Basically those treatments have involved me taking meds just to get my cycle going, so that I can take the Clomid that should get me ovulating. Unfortunately, PCOS and Endo cause the irregularity in my cycles, hence the use of meds to get me going. The hope was that my body would jump in after a couple of cycles on it's own. 7 months later and that has still not happened. It's more than a little bit frustrating, but at the same time I realize that God's timing is still perfect and all of this is part of his plan... the big picture that only He can see.
Thursday was our 3 month check up with Dr. Pete. The one where we go in to let him know how things have gone. This time, Heath didn't go with me. Mostly, I thought it was pointless for him to go with me for a 15 minute appt where Dr. Pete asks how things went, I tell him about the hot flashes, the little bit of pain, the Negative ovulation tests, the negative pregnancy test, and the lack of my cycle starting on its own. I went to the office planning on asking about what we could do to at least make me feel like we were moving forward. Having friends who have been through these stages of infertility, I knew that we needed to pin down whether the Clomid was doing anything. I had questions about where my hormone levels were and what we could do to get things moving. I think more than anything, I am really feeling like we've just been wasting the last 7 months. Before you get too excited, I also realize that our time as just the two of us is never, NEVER a waste. A year ago, I just thought we would be well on our way to having a family by now; however, God has a different plan and I'm ok with that.
Thankfully, Dr. Pete is an amazing doctor and could sense, I think, my frustration at another three months of meds that we don't know are working. Instead we are only doing 1 month of Clomid, this time around. 100 mg on days 3-7 of my cycle and then around day 16 or so, I will go in for an ultrasound that will determine if the Clomid is persuading any eggs to mature. We know that my body is not releasing them, but this will tell us whether it is producing mature eggs. If so, then I will take an HCG shot which will force my body to release the mature egg(s) and increase our chances of getting pregnant. If not, I don't know whether our next step is an increase in Clomid or what... I guess that's something we will decide when we get to it.
I feel hopeful... I don't know if it's hope that we will get pregnant this month, or just hope that comes from knowing that we are moving forward and thus one step closer to holding our baby. At any rate, after months of feeling like we were going nowhere, it feels good to know that we are going somewhere good soon. We are finally MOVING FORWARD!
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