It's been a while since I've posted and a few things have happened. I said goodbye to my 20s and hello to my 30s one week ago today...makes me want to cry! It's funny how God's plan for our life plays out. In my mind, since I was young I had planned to have 4 kids and to have them all before I was 30 so that I was still young and energetic to raise them. Ha! Apparently God has a different plan, and that's ok, because as I look back at my last 30 years, now, there isn't anything I would change. I wouldn't trade the long wait for my husband, he's amazing! And I wouldn't trade this wait that I am enduring for our family... it will be amazing! Thank you, Lord, for giving us strength to allow your plan to prevail.

We had a bridal shower for my cousin this past weekend. It was pretty fun, and I'm really thankful there weren't 5 pregnant ladies at this one. Not that I don't love them all and rejoice in their joy... it's just that it's such an in-your-face reminder... I don't know that I have words to describe the way it hits me. At times there's overwhelming hurt that all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep away the pain... and at other times there is overwhelming joy and hope that fills me. Explain that?!? I can't... it's just how it is.

Heath and I spent my birthday weekend up north at the cabin. It was BRRR! cold... only about 58 in the cabin, but then that made for some lovely cuddle nights! It was nice to get away and take a break just the two of us!

This week, Friday, will be day 28 in our second round of fertility treatments. We'll see if our efforts this month have produced the desired results... a baby! If not, we'll be disappointed, but we will also know that God has something else planned. Again we will wait until Day 40 to begin our next treatment, that will be June 3. Since we have another appt with Dr. Pete on June 10, we will likely wait until then to start the next round in hopes that he will up the dosage of Clomid and that will get me ovulating. I am prepared to go to that appt with many questions. We never know what to ask until we've gotten started on the treatments. Now that we have more understanding, we have more questions... that's strange, that more understanding produces more questions. It seems like it would be the other way around! Oh well!

In the meantime, we continue to struggle although it's getting to be less... or maybe it's just that we are learning to handle it better. The Lord is giving us strength and we know that our faith is growing, for that we are thankful! Please pray with us as we proceed in our journey. We're not sure where we are headed or what the outcome will be, but we are hopeful. We know that He still has something planned and it is for our best. We love you all and we are so thankful for the way you have lifted us up thus far. Thank you, thank you, thank you!