How Great is Our God!

Tears seem to be very close to the surface these days. They come very unexpectedly and then within minutes, I've talked myself out of them by reminding myself of the truth of God's word and His daily promises to us. So much has happened in this year already and we are only a few weeks into it. It's proving to be quite the ride and it can only get more exciting from here on out.

I am scheduled for laproscopic (looking at the outside of my tubes and uterus), hysteroscopic (looking at the inside of everything), and another dye test on February 9th. When we set the appt up, it seemed so far off, but it is coming up very quickly. We feel hopeful and a bit scared about what the results may be. It is by no accident, though, that I continue to read in my Bible about worrying, His promises, His faithfulness and goodness, etc. He knows that that is exactly what we need to hear and be reminded of right now. The surgery itself should only take a short time, but we may be at the hospital all day long. The recovery time is a week, so I will be off work, but we will know right away what the results are and that is encouraging. Praying that all goes well and knowing even now, that all will be just as it is planned. Thank you, Lord, for that peace.

Our new niece was born this week. We still have not seen her since Heath hurt his back at work and we weren't able to make the trip to the hospital. She is home today and we will see her sometime in the next couple of days. The emotions, again, right at the surface as I contemplate being able to hold this 5 lb, 3 oz beautiful baby girl. We LOVE loving on everyone else's babies, but it leaves us feeling overwhelmed with desire and leaves the pain of empty arms very real and very present. When will it be our turn? How long, Lord, will we wait? I can hear the response "I have a plan, my child, just you wait and see!"

I went to the doctor today about a small lump on the back of my neck. Doctor says she doesn't think it's anything more than a fatty tumor (nice!), but since it is very close to the spine, she would like to have it removed and have a biopsy done on it. She said it doesn't have to be done right away, so we have decided to wait until after surgery on the 9th and go from there. It seems like when it rains it pours, huh?

Work has been crazy lately. We are finishing up 1st semester finals this week. I have put in a lot of extra hours and that is adding to the stress of all that I'm dealing with physically and the stress of the unknown. We (our dept) has a meeting with the administrator this week concerning cuts in the department. I was told today that my job will change the most. I don't know what that means or what it will look like, but I will be glad when Friday comes so that I will know more! It may mean that my duties change or it could mean my hours change. Whatever it is, I know that God is working even in this situation.

It's encouraging to know and remember on a daily basis that He is in control and He can see the big picture. As our department has been faithfully working long hours these past couple of weeks anticipating this meeting, we have realized that He can see why this is happening. He knows what administration is going to say and how that will affect each one of us. He knows things we can't know right now.

There are days that I ask myself, why am I dealing with so much all at once. I am reminded of the song "How Great is Our God!" There is a line in the song that says "How Great is Our God, Sing with me, how great is our God and all will see how great, how great is our God!" So, if for no other reason, we are going through all these ups and downs, so that everyone around us can see how great our God truly is! I think of it as I sing up front in church, as I sit in chapel amongst hundreds of students, as I cuddle with my husband and dream about our someday family... He is allowing all of these things so that we can glorify Him through it. People are watching us, and it's good for us to remember that it's not about us. It's not about something we've done, or haven't done, although those things may be brought to our mind through it, it's all about HIM and HIS glory!

So, until we can see the picture, we rely on Him... the author and perfector of our faith, our Prince of Peace, our Everlasting Father, the King of Kings and we stand amazed and humbled that He would choose a couple such as ourselves, to show the world How Great He is! May He be glorified through us!